Where have I been!

Well HELLO there!

It really has been forever but I'll be completely honest with you now that my laptop has officially gone to electronic heaven blogging isn't so easy anymore. I used to spend most of my nights in bed and blogging but now I have only 1 computer and when I'm sitting in a chair I don't feel inspired to write. However I do promise to work on this, even if that means getting a new laptop (don't twist my rubber arm!).

I'll give you a quick update of what 2014 has looked like for me so far. We moved houses again at the end of 2013, which was both a pain and a blessing. My mother and father moved into the basement of our current home and that has given us lots of family time. The best thing ever to happen for my kids!

This is Grandpa, Logan and Paxton goofing around when we went to play mini golf!

This is Grandma with all her grandsons and the puppies!

A big milestone was Paxton getting his first big boy haircut, man that was a hard one. Any other moms feel that way when they took their little boy for their first cut? It was so hard to watch his beautiful curls fall to the ground and to watch him change from a baby faced little boy into a small man!

The before:

The after:

Last little update for tonight the boys are still closer then ever, I keep waiting for the moment when they want nothing to do with each other (they are 8 years apart after all) but it doesn't seem to be coming. Paxton is Logan's shadow and wants to do everything with his big brother and Logan just seems perfectly happy to allow him to do so. Warms my heart to see how much they love each other!

This month has been full of friends, family and fun, we truly couldn't be more blessed at this moment and when I look back on the end of 2013 I find it so hard to believe the place I was at and how unhappy things were. Goes to show me everything really does happen for a reason!

Thanks for reading!

Rewind: This was posted on a different blog of mine but I wanted to have it on here

This was posted on a older BLOG of mine but I wanted to transfer it here so I don't lose it. Hope you enjoy the read.

Life as it is....

So as I am sitting in class today learning about how to get hair ready for a bald cap (something we do in TV and Film) my phone starts to ring and I look at the caller ID and see it's my sons school. At this point honestly I hesitate because I know it can't be good news, lately they seem to be calling a lot more because of bad news. I step away from the current demo and answer the phone only to be told that my son is acting out again and they don't know what to do with him. It's in this moment that once again I feel guilty for going back to school to do something for myself. Have you ever felt that way? You don't have to be a parent to feel guilt over doing something for yourself. I hate that feeling because I haven't done anything wrong but somehow I feel like if I was at home where I believe in that moment I should be, then maybe he wouldn't have acted out. I know in theory how silly that is, he is a 9 year old boy acting out is his middle name right now, but I can't help but feel like staying at home gives me super powers to make everything go right.

If I had a super power it would be the power to balance everything in perfect harmony everyday. With this super power no one would ever get up late, there would be no pop tarts for breakfast because there really just isn't time for anything else, no "hurry run the first bell's already gone", me going to school would somehow not involved me taking one second away from my kids, dinner would always be ready at 6 and both kids would be fast asleep by 8:30 every night so that the rest of the time I could spend being a good girlfriend,

As I type that out I have one son in his room yelling "I can't find my "PJ's" the other child just finished a bath and my wonderful B/F is dressing him for bed. It's 8:30 and I know no one is going to be asleep before 9pm tonight. When I think about this day and how it would be different if I had my magic super power I think of all the things I'd miss out on. Sometimes in life's chaos comes beautiful peace. I lay here about to cuddle with my two amazing boys and drink hot chocolate and truthfully I love everything about this beautiful chaos.

P.S The B/F is the one making the hot chocolate because life is all about balance.